Thursday, November 4, 2010

Happy Birthday to Me!

So today is my birthday! I am 22, i'm feeling happy and optimistic about it. :) I dont have any major plans, my boyfreind is supposed to be taking me to a museum to see the Dali Exhibit. I dont know much about him (Dali), but I love looking at art work so I think it will be fun. Over the weekend, I want to have a girls night out and go somewhere like a bar or lounge. I'm not a drinker at all, but I just want to go out with my freinds and have girl talk. We'll see what happens.

I went to a shoot with the production company i'm interning with yesterday and it wasn't that great. I didn't stay that long (thank goodness) but I did a whole bunch of grunt work. I would really love to talk to someone who is in the business of film/television production and ask them about this PA business. Don't get me wrong, I am trying to be as postive as I can about it, but it's hard when I feel like i'm not learning anything. All I did was sweep...walk documents around..move this tent...get coffee...and just grunt work. The only thing that was kind of cool was that I was on set and got to see the 'real people' in their element. The producers, camera men, and everyone work together really well to get things done. I just wish I was learning more. But i'll hang in there.

As far as my acting, I spoke with the Director/producer of the film that has taken forever to get finished. He said that he's not done filming and we will be starting up soon but he's having to move. I wish that it could get done sooner, but oh well. I'll continue to look for more roles. I hope all of you are well out there!

Thanks for reading,


Tuesday, November 2, 2010


Hey Bloggers, hope all is well! This photo is another piece I made on Polyvore! The dress is Alexander McQueen and the shoes are BE&D. To see a full list of all the items used check out my profile at LivViaFashion.

On Mondays and Wednesdays I go to this workout class that is cardio mixed with strength training. Yesterday I went and I pushed myself harder and today I am completely sore! I'm glad because that means I had a great workout. In regards to my weight loss, I am becoming very focused to get the weight off! I know they say you dont have to be skinny to be in the entertainment industry, but it sure doens't hurt! I have aspirations to be on TV at some point in my life, and that means I need to look good. That is part of it. I dont want to be stick thin, but I do want to look the best I can.

I am a member of Sparkpeople, all of you people trying to loose weight should become a member of this site. It has everything you can imagine! From your own personal page, to recipes, to fitness and nutrition calculators. They also have a message board where you can meet new people! Check it out!

I got my paper back that I wrote last week and my teacher gave me an A! I was so happy, I'm not sure what my grades are going to look like this semester but i'm hoping I can get more A's then B's. We'll see.

I've been looking for more auditions but I haven't been able to find any :( I'll keep trying though. I should be going to a shoot with Radiant 3 tomorrow, but i'm not sure just yet. Hope all of you are great out there!

Thanks for reading,


Monday, November 1, 2010

The Need for fun!

Hey Bloggers, sorry i've been gone for a few days things have just been pretty crazy! I hope you like the picture, I actually created this! I am a member of this site called Polyvore, my cousin showed it to me and it's been my guilty pleasure. You can create these beautiful pieces of art using whatever you want, most people use fashion as their inspiration and so do I. I have decided that each time I make a blog I will post something I have made versus just an ordinary picture! In this poly I used various items, the dress is Anna Sui and the shoes are Christian Louboutin! Hope you like it. You can check out my Polyvore profile here:

I had an exam on Thursday, I'm not sure how I did but i'm hoping for the best. I did well with my eating and this week I was down .4. I'm still paying the price for my crazy weekend of eating a few weeks ago, and now I know that I dont want to do that agian. I hate going up and down with my weight, I just want to make progress and that's it.

My birthday is on thursday, my boyfreind has something planned for me but i'm not sure what it is. I like suprises though, so i'm kind of excited. But i'm also finding that I dont have that much fun in my life. Everything is about school and work. I know the kind of life I want eventually, a great job, great husband, great friends, great house. I know that nothing is perfect and that includes my life, but I want to get as close to that perfect life as I can. Because I believe I am worth it! Part of that is having fun! I need to make sure that my life is fulfilling in every way.

So I promise myself that i'm going to try and have more fun in my life! I think you all should as well!

Thanks for reading,


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Trying to Stay Afloat

Hey Bloggers, so things have been sort of crazy for me lately and it's caused me to be quite stressed out. I had a paper due today that I pushed to the last minute but got it done! I hope I did well, but who knows, the teacher for that class grades pretty harshly. But i've done all I can do so I'll just have to see what happends.

Also, I had a terrible weekend of eating everything in sight and gained about like 4 pounds. I know it's not real weight so i'm not freaking out that much, but I am disappointed with the fact that I let myself eat like that. I'm still going to remain positive though, and pick myself up!

I never heard back from the people I sent my headshots too, time to move on to more auditions. I e-mailed Radiant 3 productions and I should be gong to a shoot on friday. I know it's not cool of me, but i'm not exactly thrilled to be going up there. I just have a bad taste in my mouth about the last visit I had where I did nothing but paperwork. They are shooting now, so maybe this time will be better. I just want to go on set and not be in the office stapling documents and filing.

Thanks for reading,


Friday, October 22, 2010

Working it out

Hey bloggers! In my last blog I talked about my issues with my boyfreind. Unfortunately, I didn't get to talk to him about it but I defintely will today. I think the best thing might be that we break up because I have just been settling way to long. But I still want to discuss it with him and see what he thinks. My heart hurts at the thought of not being with him, but if it's the best for me as a person then I have to do it. I owe to to myself.

I weighed today and I was 164.8, I was up .2 from Wednesday, but i'm not said about that at all. That means by next week i'll be less than I was this week. I'm making progress. I'm happy about that.

I haven't heard from Radiant 3 Productions since my visit last week, I would have went today but I had to take my car in because the check engine light is on, we all know that means i'll be with  no car all day.

I applied to audtion for these short films but haven't heard back from them. I'm tired of waiting on the "Jason Banks" film to continue shooting. I haven't heard from the director/producer in awhile. It's kinda sad though, it would have been nice to add that to my acting resume. Oh well, I must move on.

Thanks for reading,

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Reevaluating my life

Okay, so alot of things have been going on with me lately and I have made a decision that I need to do some reevaluating. I know I am not perfect, but I always strive to be the best person I can be and so I every now and then, I evaluate where my life is going to make sure I am staying on track. I am very goal oriented, and I believe this is part of the reason I do these evaluations. I want to make sure I am remembering my wants and needs. I want to be the happiest I can be, and sometimes when we go through life we lose sight of what we want. So I evaluate.

Alright, I know I dont talk much about my relationship with my boyfriend. But this is what has been bothering me the most.  I would like to start out by making a shout out to Teen Bride, she has been coming to my blog for a few days now. I just want to thank her because I made this decision to reevaluate my relationship after reading her blog and talking to her via comments. So thanks agian! Check out her blog at Teen Bride. She is awesome!

Okay, so my boyfreind and I have a good realtionship but there are things about him that make me wonder. In the interest of time, I will just say that his temper and negativity towards life are the main issues. Before I got with my boyfreind, my goal was to have a guy that was very compatible to me, doesn't drink or smoke, takes care of himself and wants to have the best life he can possibly have. My bf is going through a rut right now after losing his makes him depressed and so he's very negative. He doesn't take care of his body..he stopped working out and he drinks and smokes.

I have tried to ignore his negativity, but I am finding that as time goes on his attitude is getting worse and not better. In turn, that is making me feel sad and not happy because he brings down my mood. I know that I am worth a guy that will try to get his life together. My boyfriend is so lost in his depression that he has stopped trying. In January of 2011 I will have been with him for 3 years...he has been going through this depression for about 1 year and a half.

So to keep this as short a possible. Today I am going to face my boyfreind and tell him that I can't stay with him if he can't get himself together. Its been a long time and I have tried to be his rock and foundation. But enough is enough. I'm not sure where our relationship is headed, but I have to make sure i'm happy always.

Thanks for reading,


Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Feeling Better

Hey Bloggers! Hope you like my new layout, i'm feeling great today so I felt like making a change :)

So yesterday I went to an actual shoot with Wonderroot TV. They produce one episode per month for a local station and they also post them online. It consists of different segments but basically their goal is to connect the community to local artists. When I say artists, I mean ANY type...sculpters, painters, musicans, photographers... anything you can think of. Their office has a recording studio, a photography room (not sure of the technical name), a painter and scuplting room, and even a garage where muscians can perform. The place is awesome! When they complete this show that I helped out with i'll be sure to post it!

There are alot of students there too, so i'm around my peers. I think i'm going to find a way to get $10 a month so I can be a member and then I can go to the various workshops they have. I really want to get ahead of the game and learn final cut pro! I also want to learn photoshop.

I weighed yesterday and I was up..but only .2 so i'm super happy about that. To me, that means by friday I should be down from where I was last week! More progress, i'm ready for it! I've also become addicted to biggest loser and Thintervention which comes on Bravo. I've decided to kick up my workouts even more. Today, i'm going to run 3 miles! I usually just do an hour of cardio, but I think today i'm gonna step it up. I want this weight gone! 

I hope all of you are doing wonderful! Thank you so much to the 9 followers out there, you guys are amazing!

Thanks for reading,